Trying..........

heylos..... so recently, i've been feeling low... emotional, mentally, physically low..... tired of working... mentally shag.... been thinking too much... i don't know whats up with me nowadays... i think too much.. i think im a bad person... i've been selfish, egoistic, 2-face biatch.... im not in control of myself anymore and forgot how to do so. i follow my emotion too much that i think sometimes im a crazy daughther,sister, girlfriend & friend. i have not been myself and i worry i might just lose the people i love the most.

and so i called my sister (the bestest sister anyone cld have), i feel that she could understand me the most... and she did...the always and ever life saver and her advice cum motivation helped me pull thru the night.. i broke down and had the best cry after so long of frustration... im a whiner i know but hey' what the heck... i need a breather once awhile.. i need to ventilate... live my life and u'll know what i mean.

so im not perfect... no one is... why bother? i must start a new and be positive... always look on the bright sight and appreciate every lil thing and everyone in my life. im trying......................

the Hate's Ex-Girlfriend sydrome is haunting me right now... why am i soo paranoid anyway?? if he love me that much, wouldn't he stick with me??... Im just a jealous freako, i guess... i don't get why i must feel this way... can i not feel this way?... Im not suppose to be like this. the jealous over ex-girlfriend. do i even have the right? he did told me once that i don't have the rights to say bad things about her... i don't know her.
well, yea i don't know her but i do know that he was soo in love with her once upon a time.. sheesshh!!! Nadia... What is the matter with me?? Someone,... i need some love guru advice....