When You Love Someone

When you love someone
You'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain

You'll shoot the moon
Put out the sun
When you love someone
You'll deny the truth
Believe a lie

There'll be times that you believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights have just began
When you love someone

When you love someone
You feel it deep inside
And nothing else could ever change your mind

When you want someone
When you need someone
When you love someone

When you love someone
You'll sacrifice
You'd give it everything you got
And you won't think twice
You'll risk it all
No matter what may come

When you love someone
You'll shoot the moon
Put out the sun

When you love someone...

I love you Mohammad Syafiq Bin Sa'ad.

all this people

hello peoples!

im longing to blog about this... i've been out for the past few days with my sister to go look for her stuffs for graduation and all and we had some unplesant experiences here and there...

let me start with Customer Service...so we were out haunting for a ball dress for kak iqa right, so we drop by this somehow or rather "look exclusive" dress shop in Vivo (Don't know the name of the shop but i'll never ever step foot in that shop ever again) and what pisses me off to the core is that from the moment we step in the shop, ( & we hung around looking at their dresses for at least 10 mins) and til we step out, the bloody lady sitting at the counter didn't even bother to look up to even welcome or even say goodbye to her precious customer...Bloody hell! i curse that shop til the end... what kind of service is that.. i don't know how the hell they even make business..
and so yea, the other shitty service we got, was from a shop called "EUGU---??" (not sure of the weird name) in Marina Square, but oh yea, this is the shop kak iqa got her pretty dress... but whatever it is... im still mad at the irritating, racist shitty lady... from the start, she didn't really bother to layan us much... like as though we didn't have the money to pay... Whatever!... but the thing that freaking pissed me was the fact that the way she actually layan her own race people...
it was soo obviously UNFair!... she treat them with a huge smile and she picks out different type of dresses for them to choose and heels to see what the dress wld look like in heels...
But kak iqa had nothing of that service.... she serve us like she didn't want to and to see that infront of my own eyes, the racism...this is real world huh'... man, i really thought that this is something i should and want to blog about... about how customer service in singapore SUCK BIG TIME!!!!!!!!

1 more incident i wanna blog about which happen just today,,... A Bunch Of American Idiot guys!!!... Okay, What would u think or say when a foreigner asking, Where is the electronic Towers ?? a normal singaporean reaction would deffinitely be confuse with 1 eyebrow up... not that we don't understand ENglish but because there's no such thing as electronic towers in singapore..stupid bunch of american guys... ok, this is what happen right.. Kak iqa& me was in the MRT and this american guy came up all the way from the other side of cabin to ask this bunch of school boys that stupid question of his.. "where is the electronic towers?"... so obviously, the school boys looked puzzled.. and this guy speak to them loud, clear & Slowly like they're stupid, asking them weather they know how to speak english... and he pick out 1 of the boys ear piece when he said electronic... how Rude is that???? i mean i find that rude to the max... everyone in the train was looking and poor school boys trying to figure out where the electronic towers are..... Bloody Bunch Of American Idiot guys!!!

it's been soo long....

alrighty.... so i know i haven't been bloging now a days... been too lazy and buzy to blog.. i must make time for blogging now.. at least 1times per week... but soetimes i just don't know what i have to say... since my life is not that soo drama mama at the moment.. been too much of a boring person i think.... hmm......

oh well, so current news, i have sign up myself to Amore, fitness club/gym... so yea, something different.. so im payin $88 per month for this and i hope to see a different me in a few months time... im alone in this.. i haven't got a friend to join me... im all miss independent....haha'... tell u the truth im really scared inside... and i don't know if i would like it... so ow i have to make full use of the equipments & activities there kan... swimming pool... cool'.... but would it still be cool to do all that alone? not to have someone to share it with?? will i be able to do all that alone.. make new friends??? this is hell scary for me...... big step and im not too sure abt it... but kak iqa always say "there's always the first in everything u do..." so i shld not be scared! i shld not be scared! i shld not be scared! Think POSITIVE....

nway, i gtg now... update again soon... toodles people~

I hate it when we fight... tak suka gaduh-gaduh.... benci lahhh tersangat..... why lah? why ???
why must i be jealous? and why doesn't he understand that i hate it when she msg him? why must she msg him at the 1st place? 3-4 times a week? tak banyak sangat ke??? nak gossip pun tak payah off working hours pe?? why this & why that??? why??? why??? why???

tak suka tak suka tak suka......


I Hate being Jealous!!!

I was browsing through Erra's song today on youtube and i stumble to one of my most favourite song of her's and Yusri..

UCAPKANLAH...

Kadangkala aku rasa ingin luahkan segalanya
Rahsia yang tersimpan di dada sekian lama
Namun kelu terus membisu menatap wajahmu
Daku malu tapi tak mahu kehilanganmu
Ucapkanlah cinta
Ucapkan ku saja yang kau perlu setiap waktu
Sepanjang hayatmu
Ucapkan kau rindu
Daku yang kau mahu
Yang kau cari telah kau temui
Ku tidak tertahan lagi untuk mengaku ku cinta mu

Dan kadangkala kita hanya sedar keindahannya
Apabila ia sudah tiada di depan mata
Tidak rela kulepaskan satu-satunya insan
Yang berikan ku segala makna kehidupan

Andai daku kau terima lebih dari teman biasa
Daku kan setia tak kubenarkan kau berairmata
Andai kau terima cintaku
Daku kan belaikan tanganmu
Di penghujung waktu kau dan aku di dunia

This i Must Post..

okay, so have u heard that i trip and fell and sprain my right foot?!

shessh, sungguh memalukan... infront of god knows how many people lah kan..!
i fell right infront of tampines mrt station... it was crowded but sadly not 1 kind soul came to asked if everything was alright.... not that i was expecting it but i was imagining, what if i was all alone and no1 was there to give a hand.?... sheessh!

Heal my precious foot... Heal fast for raya....

Trying..........

heylos..... so recently, i've been feeling low... emotional, mentally, physically low..... tired of working... mentally shag.... been thinking too much... i don't know whats up with me nowadays... i think too much.. i think im a bad person... i've been selfish, egoistic, 2-face biatch.... im not in control of myself anymore and forgot how to do so. i follow my emotion too much that i think sometimes im a crazy daughther,sister, girlfriend & friend. i have not been myself and i worry i might just lose the people i love the most.

and so i called my sister (the bestest sister anyone cld have), i feel that she could understand me the most... and she did...the always and ever life saver and her advice cum motivation helped me pull thru the night.. i broke down and had the best cry after so long of frustration... im a whiner i know but hey' what the heck... i need a breather once awhile.. i need to ventilate... live my life and u'll know what i mean.

so im not perfect... no one is... why bother? i must start a new and be positive... always look on the bright sight and appreciate every lil thing and everyone in my life. im trying......................

the Hate's Ex-Girlfriend sydrome is haunting me right now... why am i soo paranoid anyway?? if he love me that much, wouldn't he stick with me??... Im just a jealous freako, i guess... i don't get why i must feel this way... can i not feel this way?... Im not suppose to be like this. the jealous over ex-girlfriend. do i even have the right? he did told me once that i don't have the rights to say bad things about her... i don't know her.
well, yea i don't know her but i do know that he was soo in love with her once upon a time.. sheesshh!!! Nadia... What is the matter with me?? Someone,... i need some love guru advice....

best sey lagu ni...

Third day in ward and im lovin' it... maybe pasal there's full manpower kot... but oh well, i think im liking my ward.. the staffs are great.. the sister is great.. and the abang-abang cisco pun great.. it's great that we do not have callbells, do not have visitors, no interruption.. and everywhere you go also got escort ( who don't want right? ) and now i realise i won't be that alone during night shift.. won't have to be that afraid nomore... yeay!!! i like!!!!

okay, im soo addicted to this song. Kantoi by Zee Avi (go check it out on youtube ya')
Lyrics
Semalam i call you, you tak answer
you kata you keluar pergi dinner
you kata you keluar dengan kawan you
but when i called Tommy he said it wasn't true
So i drove my car, pergi Damansara
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola
tapi bila i sampai you, you tak ada
lagi lah i jadi gila...

So i called and called sampai you answer
you kata "sorry sayang, tadi tak dengar'' ( this is sooo true... kenape lah all guys suka nah
my phone was on silent, i was at the gym line ni )
tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain
sudah lah sayang i don't believe you
for i always known that you weren't so never true
why am i with you, i pun tak tahu
no wonder lah my friends semua tak suka you

so i guess that's the end of our story
akhir kata she accepted his apology
tapi last, last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too
with her ex boyfriend's best friend..... Tommy. KANTOI !

Welcome to reality

Tommorrow's the big day.We are all going back to our respective wards.And im meeting my ward for the first time.very excited and i really hope that i'll like it there. our so-called honeymoon period has officially end last friday and our C.I Eugene gave us a big welcome to reality.. its no more teacher to back us up, it's just us on our 2 feets.. the huge responsibility is on us now.dealing with life & death. i tried not thinking about it because it's just freaking me out. so im just gonna do my very best! learn as much as i could and be the best nurse to my patients.


I miss my friends so very much... we got together yesterday and god knows when we are all meeting again. (guys, we have to set a date for another date?)... maybe this time we go batam spa together-gather ke???one day trip? harizah,harizah..aku tahu kau setuju dengan aku. :)

oh welll, only this time when we meet i hope they won't be talking about work in sgh... :P

It's a whole week of lectures.... and lectures for another 3 more weeks. They say it's the honeymoon period.. i must say it's totally not honeymoon LAH, when all we do is sit and listen... learning, recapping, refreshing of memory i say... that's not honeymoon. It's like getting ready for a war,fight, exam.. like some competition..... it is afterall a very competitive world out there... when the asst. director of nursing was giving her talk, she was talking about all sorts of stuff...Interesting indeed! sometimes demorallizing.... i remembered she was asking 'What do you see yourself in 3 years time?'.. Honestly, i really don't know... i don't know if i'll ever be a registered Nurse... Looks like im just demoralize at the moment. i really have to work hard and enjoy my work to score that staff appraisal... or else im just equivalent to dead!...

oh well, enough of that.. i need to do some thanking!!!
i have a list of people to thank and i'd like to thank them here in my blog.... :)

* to Kak Long Yati..... im soo glad i borrowed that formal outfit from you because that top really made me feel like a stewardess... haha... tak dapat jadi stewardess, dapat berangan kat graduation pun jadi lah.... haha.. Thank you soo much!!

*to All/Everyone who visited my mother who was sick lately... thank you very much for the care and concern... i very much appreciate it!!! my mum is recovering well with all the support she got.. THANKS!!!!

*to Aunty Rahmah/Aunty Jan.... Thank you for getting the family a water filter kinda product called RX Water.... which cost like a thousand plus.. was a present to mum but benefits the family as well.... Appreciate it! thanks...

*to Kak yani and Kak ikin.... for spending time with me last sunday.. was hell lot of fun!!! from 12 noon to 2 am... was quite a talk huh'.... Thanks girls!!

ok...that's all for now...and thank you god im still alive!!! Amin.

Friends???

why do i feel like not going for graduation anymore?? has the time past or i just can't stand the fact that i have to face a friend?? or shall i call it 'once upon a time friend' perhaps... i don't know.... it's just soo frustrating to know that 'yea, real friends are really hard to find'... it suck... and for people like me who thinks highly of my friends, who appreciate my friends, who doesn't want to lose a friend, who hates to know that i have enemies.... i guess everyone go through this kind of period whereby she thinks she's losing a friend.... what the hell am i talking about?? i grew up losing friends, making new friends.... so, why am i not used to it yet?? maybe because i thought i had something special, a friendship i cherish but its all going down the drain now...
come back to the real world nadia.... i guess it wasn't meant to be...so lets just let it go.

Pulau Buru

Im sure it never too late to be blogging about my, a week ago trip to Pulau Buru.... My 1st ever trip (well, not really.... According to my parents i've been there once when i was 6 months old and i could remember nothing of coz) So basically this is my 1st ever trip that i could remember of to Pulau Buru... :)

So where do i start... life in Buru is just like any other kampung life anyone could imagine... Pokok kelapa, Air perigi, Rumah Pondok, Mosqitos, Hutan, cementry and lots of cats around etc, etc....(only that, we get special treatment as whatever we want we get it straight away.. Cool Kan) anyway, so i wasn't much prepared for all this when i said yes to the trip...

and i was overwhelmed...

for the first few hours i was traumatized with all the nyamuk bites, Cats (im scared of cats), Hot weather, TOILETS.... (and to make it worst, i really had to pee real bad when i first arrived).

And so i learn, Never to go Buru when there's a wedding because you do not get that much of the attention because everyone will be pretty much B.U.S.Y....and there wouldn't be bikes for us to be wondering about around the pulau. so, We were spilted into two groups to go visit kubur badang... it was hell of an experience riding the bike up, down hills into the jungle....

As promise, otak2 udang was handmade right there and then, espeacially for us... Sedap Gilerrr!!! im soo going to buru again for this otak2...

The Fresh Coconut drinks.... Wonderful!

Ini lah dia, Kubur Badang....

When we first arrived and noone was there to pick us up and i really had to pee really really bad...

We took this speedboat to pulau Buru from tg. Balai... Syiok tau... i thought i'd be scared but it was real fun and laju... best !!!

( but now that the mums tahu that there's a larger boat that stops to buru every now and then... i don't know if i'll ever get to ride on one of this anymore....)

despite the traumatizing, food poisoning bad experience.... I SOOO want to go to Buru again for sure... with my sister and all my beautiful cousins... And if you go with anak2 cik lamat, you'll get the extra treaments and feel like a princess.. who doesn't want to feel like a princess, tell me...

And yes, we tend to appriciate our climax, environment, toilets more... i know i do.

alrighty..... pheww! finally i have uploaded all the pictures on facebook...from fiq's surprise b'day to phillipines and to our latest hang out day playing pool... and ohh man, it took me hours to upload all that...

Im bringing SEXY back........ hehe.. no lah, what i meant was IM BACK!!! okay that's kinda lame but Who Cares! haha

Anyways, yes yes yes..... I Am A NURSE!! oh yeas i am... lucky future patients of mine... they will be pampered and well taken care of... *Blink2*

The busy preparing for hantarans and deco has officially end today...
Congratulations to Abg Hafidz who got engaged today !!! (so kakak Ateeqz, listen up... they are all expecting u after this as said by many just now..... It Aznilah&Latiff's turn to be pening with jumputans now... hahaha!)
Also Congratulations to "used-to-be-close" cousin of ours, Lukman Hakim who got married last weekend (FYI: Dengan sekali lafaz sahaja) Caya lah Man!!! & also kak fati who had her wedding ceremony together with her brother lah... Cheers!

Alhamdulillah... All my mum's hard work with the hantarans deco was appreciated, I Hope! but to my Ibu, All the deco was very well done!!! i love it!! Lotsa Credits to my Ibu....

okay.. so now i am free i will definitely have to find a good day, time to update my blog about my beautifool life and pictures to go with it kan.... will do SooN....

okay... so what have i missed on the latest news updates...

*Im going to phillipines this early march

*Abg Hafidz getting enggaged soon... A real Shocker!!

*IM GRADUATING IN A FEW WEEKS TIME!!!!

*Love is still in the air... :) 3months and counting....

okay... mainly i think that's the hottest news at the moment lah kan....

Somehow or rather, i don't know why im feeling like this BUT i just can't wait to graduate... fickle lah pulak, hari tu tak nak graduate, now tak sabar nak graduate... Weird but that's how i feel. i can't wait to see what is going to happen to my life lah basically... No rushing it but to see people's life change with a blink of an eye, i too am afraid i might be trap in a situation im least expecting..iye lah, kita merancang, tuhan menentukan.. iye tak?
oh well, old saying... LIFE GOES ON...so keep on smiling baby!

Sleepless Nights

And so i made it... made it through my 1st ever night duty.... yippididuda!!!!

1st night went really fast... maybe because we were excited and all... and yes i drank up lots of coffee and had lots of sour plums to keep me awake... 2nd day went by really slow unfortunately, even when we had lots of work and attended to lots of call bells and almost all of our patients were on 4 hourly para... and its also the 2nd day that we all encounter abnormal, eeiirry feelings in that ward that made us all had goosebumps... It all came out to this morning when we were having breakfast in McDonalds. Everyone had their share of stories.... SCARY!!!

But whatever it is.... YES! i've made it through my night and will be having more sleepless nights SooOn....

Birthday with Best Buds

Best Buds, Harizah&HooDa with the excited B'day girl

The very Surprise, Happy, Excited, Paiseh a lil B'day Girl

B'day GiftsThe excited B'day girl

Syafiq & The Still Excited B'day Girl

The Fantastic Fours

WOOOOHHOO!!! i had the best surprise b'day celebration with my best buds today! (HoOda, Rizah & Fiq) Thanks yous guys!!!

they blanja me makan at pizza hut in Marina Square and soo we were just having fun talking and craping and playing with food and having the best time... then suddenly the music stop and the lights were dimmed and b'day tune went on... out came the pizza hut's staff with a plate of sliced cakes and flowers,Roses... i was soo freaking excited lahh to see who's b'day it was coz a few table away from us was this big family taking pictures and all. Really i didn't think it was for me at all... (but In my heart i was like, if only it was for me lah kan..)

AND Guess What??? IT WAS FOR MEEEE!!!

Excited gilerr lah kan when the pizza hut's staff came towards me, and everyone singing and clapping.... Paisehh lah jugak tapi what the heck.... A Surprise Party for me???? how sweet is that??? i love every moment of it and i'll cherish it til forever... really guys!!!! it was the sweetest b'day gift...And the flowers... my 1st!! AWWW!!! BEst lah jadi b'day girl!!!!!!!! (mcm ni b'day tiap hari pun takde masalah kan, cuma nanti tua nak mampus jee lah)

Legal 21

Im 21 years old...... 9 more years i'll be 30... Ohh Shiot!!!

Anyway, Thank you for all the wishes from everyone who wish me last friday!!! i love you all!!!

Nope, didn't have any big party... just a small dinner with my family, thurday nite at an indian restaurant @ Velu's House.. with great indian food (fish head curry, chicken masala, king prawns sambal) and Vonderful entertainment music video's of great hits hindi songs..i Love IT!!! Vhat a Vay to celebvate my 21st b'day kan?? Thanks to beautiful mum who belanja... i love you!!!

On Friday Night after work i met up with fiqo to have dinner at McDonalds... That sweet Thang bought me Adidas Limited Edition watch and adidas Wallet !!!!! Caya lah....
And to top it of, I got my Chocolate Mousse Cake from Polar when i got home that evening from ibu!!

Thank YOu!!!! Thank You!!!! Thank You!!!!

Hellozz people.... its been awhile since i blog...i know...lazy me... oh no, wait, not lazy lahh... B.U.Z.Y!!...

its been 2 weeks now of attachment, this is our last attachment and then off we go on our own.... an Enrolled Nurse, its scary to just think about it... i don't think im ready to be on my own yet... i guess i'll have to try since im basically gonna be on my own in the ward now because im teamed up with 'sememek' and her friend, so obviously im gonna be alone.. so i guess i'll have to learn to not depend on friends now coz i don't have any friendss... Shitzo !!!!
Starting from today im officially gonna be the most miserable girl in town.. but only for this 3 horrible weeks... DAMN IT!!! ( Maybe god plan all this to make me a better person..? humm... but im already a better person and i'll be a better, better person if i get to work with people i like) *SIGH*

oh well, life is hard and unfair and boring and it kinda sux for me right now... and i gotta live and learn............................